A lot has changed this month. I came to a realization about myself that I think, on some level, I’ve always known but was afraid to accept. It’s likely that I’m asexual. I never felt comfortable with the term for two reasons. One, I wrongly believed that it meant I couldn’t have any sexual feelings … Read moreAugust 2022 | My Gender Identity & Asexuality
Well, here we are. One year later. I have the testosterone, the syringes, everything I need to begin my medical transition. I’ve never lied in any of these blog posts and I’m not going to start now. The whole point of writing these is to be completely honest. Because someone out there might have a … Read moreJuly 2022 | Part 10 | My Gender Identity: FTM (One Year Later)
TRIGGER WARNING: Sexual, emotional, and psychological abuse. Only read this if it is safe for you to do so. Keeping a child alive to adulthood is the bare minimum of parenting—the “participation trophy” of parenthood, you could say. Perhaps because of my own upbringing, I realize how much actual effort it takes to raise a … Read moreMy Gender Identity: Part 9 (Exploring My Childhood)
‘Sup Travelers and Dreamers! So, I turned 32. I initially wanted to start HRT on or around my birthday, but I wound up putting that on hold for a few reasons. This is not something to rush into and not something I want to do if I’m not 100% about it. So I waited. Because … Read moreMy Gender Identity: Part 8 (Figuring Out What I Want)
READ THIS PART FIRST ONE: I have completely stopped smoking cigarettes! Now when I start testosterone, I’ll see results much faster. TWO: TRIGGER WARNINGS all through this blog post. Dysphoria (top, bottom, all around), trans doubt, transphobic self-talk (like, what the fuck?), and so on and so forth. THREE: Content warning for TMI regarding my … Read moreMy Gender Identity: Part 7 (FTM – Seven Months Later)
If you’ve spent any time at all researching FTM transition, you probably came across the dysphoria struggles some men feel when that time of the month rolls around. It didn’t seem like this was going to be a thing that really affected me at first. It hadn’t bothered me all my life, aside from an … Read moreMy Gender Identity, Part 6: Men Who Menstruate
Welcome back to another installment of “Who The F*%k Am I?” My name is Luke (probably) and I’ll be your host for this evening! Get something warm to drink, snuggle under that cozy blanket, and enjoy the show! On today’s episode, we’ll be discussing bottom dysphoria and trans doubt. My good friend, Alistair Caradec, recently … Read moreMy Gender Identity: Part Five (Bottom Dysphoria)
Hey, y’all! We’re about three months in to my social transition! I haven’t done a gender identity update in about a month and I figured I should probably take a moment now to put my thoughts down in words and reflect. I’ve moved to Columbus (and built up some muscle from loading and unloading a … Read moreMy Gender Identity (Part Four): I Need Options
Part of me has been considering the fact that I once loved my breasts. I’ve been worrying that I might miss them after getting top surgery. This, of course, led me to searching for others who felt this same way and transitioned anyway. I found a few people who basically were trying to live their … Read moreMy Gender Identity: Part Three (Dysphoria Through The Ages)
Hello, Internet! I’m writing this while I’m a bit peeved, just so you have an idea of what to expect. This isn’t going to be a lighthearted and fun blog post. This is gonna be some tea. My mom used to be so afraid that her children were embarrassed of her. It was a constant … Read moreYou Are Responsible For You (A Rant)