Hey there, Travelers & Dreamers!
I know it’s been a long time since I updated my blog, so I thought I’d give you all a quick recap of my life. In my first year of real estate, I’ve averaged about one sale per month, so that’s going well. I’ve also revised the first ten chapters of REM World about seven to ten times, trying to get it right.
And I’ve just started therapy, which is much needed and long overdue. (If you can’t tell by my twisted writing, lol.)
I have a lot of fear surrounding the success of my writing and that is why it is taking me so long to finish REM World. If I finish it and send it out, there’s a chance no agent will want it. Or there’s a chance that they’ll represent it and it will flop.
Yes, I know that all writers have this fear. I know it shouldn’t hold me back. But there’s a part of me that worries that I’ll somehow prove everyone right who doubted me. Those people in my past who said I’ll never make it out of community message boards. Those people who said that writing wasn’t a practical career path. Those people who laughed and mocked me for thinking I could ever make a living from writing.
But I’ve proven them right so far, simply by not submitting my work. By not completing it. By dragging my feet in fear and doubt.
I’m letting them manipulate me by not pressing forward. I’m letting them hold me back.
And fuck that. Fuck them. They don’t get to have that kind of power over me!
So, I’ve set a completion date for the final draft. It’s my birthday (01/23/2020) and I will give myself this gift, come hell or high water.
Also, if you’re looking for excellent therapy, BetterHelp is the tits. And it’s way cheaper than traditional therapy. (A month of sessions for the price of one, basically.)
I’m not gonna keep you guys reading for forever, so I’ll end this here. Have a great autumn and remember: Fear can only block your path if you let it!